I Give Up

The hair growth was really very little trouble but it seemed to take forever so I stopped thinking of the request and her Instruction. I did not check back on the site for many months. My work and life were subtly shifting though as I began to determine exactly what I needed to become.

With the weeks becoming months, and with my hair having grown long enough to fall beyond my shoulders I tried to style it for some new shots but it was useless. Each morning I tried, to make it look good, but wrapped it in a ponytail band and walked to the bus, for the fifteen minutes to work. I should have visited a salon, but I kept to myself. Though I would dress in my small wardrobe nearly every evening I couldn't seem to leave the protection of the apartment.

My femininity was rising as each long week passed. I felt lucky that anaisdom was there, but was she really? Wasn't I guiding myself? Yet I wanted more; as I looked at my body, I wondered about changing my shape. The possibility that I might develop breasts was on my mind; my thin tummy flared to my thirty-five inch hips, but the flat contour above caused me anxiety. My medical coverage wouldn't help, and the cost of top surgery was outside my imagination. I was discreet about my dressing and kept to myself. The dressing and changes remained my private activity.

The hair falling on my back felt wonderful and after six nights and watching many Utube videos on styling and makeup I finally had a look, a feminine look, and I made and sent the images. I was smiling in each for I was happy with my quite womanly features and the makeup skills I had developed. Not too much mascara or shadow was the trick; less could be more.

I received a response to the pictures the next morning. With some joy, I decided to stay home and practice several other styles. After having spent the months learning more about my skin and the application of makeup, I was quite happy, and sent another image around two in the afternoon. I came to see my face as feminine, with a soft jawline, and I hoped anaisdom would be happy. The return e-mail was quick and simple just one word: 'better'.