The Making of Erica - Sperm Loving Crossdresser

I frequently sat around in my hotel room, dressed, and surfed the net for porn. I downloaded hundreds of pictures, mostly sexy women wearing stockings and panties and women getting facials. I was fascinated by sperm! I would download and catalog my porn pics by type, such as: facials, lookers-blond, fucking, etc. I copied this into Power Point slide shows and would sit, watch, and masturbate.

My wife didn’t know about any of this, until I made a fatal mistake. I had upgraded from using CDs to using smaller, higher capacity thumb drives. I was at home one morning, downloading porn, and I left the thumb drive in the computer in the family room. Not only that, I had forgotten to erase the history of the websites I had visited. Stupid! She found this, and understandably, was very, very hurt. I apologized. I told her that I had an addiction to porn and she insisted that I seek counseling. So, I started seeing a therapist (it didn’t help that she was an attractive woman and I would sit on her sofa, talking about sex, and mentally undressing her with my eyes! She was about my age and very sexy. She was divorced and I wanted her to give me a blow job, or to lay back, spread her legs and allow me to watch her masturbate. I jerked off thinking about her sometimes. She was professional in all of our sessions. Rats!

At home, things had calmed down and seemed to be okay. Then, maybe a year or so later, she discovered a cache of my lingerie. I mumbled some explanation, and got rid of everything – a couple of bags of panties, stockings, garter belts, bras, heels, and makeup (darn!). To-date, I had only told my therapist about the porn collection and not about my crossdressing.

Then, the wife found another thumb drive in my briefcase. This one, contained photos of me dressed in sexy woman’s underwear and several of me masturbating. Opps! She was crushed, insisted that I needed “help”, and she has never trusted me, particularly with thumb drives or the Internet, again. It didn’t help that some of the images were rather graphic, including me being dressed and jerking off. I never knew, and she never told me, what she had seen, but I suspected the worst! Secretly, I wished she would watch me jerk off and cum on her panty covered crotch!