The Babysitter's Secret Part 2

"What? I'll do absolutely anything!"

"Don't say that before you hear my offer."

"OK."

"Jenny . . . have you ever thought about being with another girl?"

"You mean, like, a regular girl?" she asked. "Not a girl like me?"

"A regular girl."

Jenny looked at me for a moment, then an embarassed smile lit up her face. She blushed and I knew I had my answer right there. Jenny had been a virgin when she and I were first together, I knew that, but she had fantasized about sex with boys plenty before that. Apparently, she'd fantasized about sex with girls as well. I actually wasn't all that surprised. My recent experiences had taught me that perhaps everyone is a little bisexual.

"Yeah," she said at last. "I have."

"Would you like to try it?"

"Do you mean . . . Shawna?"

"She's bisexual, Jenny. She's been with women before. The person she slept with wasn't another man. It was a woman she works with. She told me that she likes men but that she can't help but fantasizing about being with women but, when she actually does it, she finds it unsatisfying. And there's a reason for it."

"What's the reason?"

"There's something men have that women don't," I said, "and that's what Shawna likes."

"You mean . . . a penis?" Jenny asked. "Does Shawna know about me?"

"I told her," I confessed. "I know I promised to keep it a secret, but my marriage was at stake."

"That's OK," she said. "I know I can trust her."

"I think this thing is going to keep happening to Shawna. She's going to try to ignore her bisexual side but it will keep building and building until she finally breaks down. But then she'll be disappointed and frustrated by the experience and everything will happen all over again. And I know that I simply can't force myself to stop sleeping with you. It would be like cutting out piece of my heart. What Shawna and I need is someone we can share who can give us both what we need. Shawna and I are like two-thirds of a circle. We need someone to complete it."