Physical exam that embarrassed the fuck out of me.

We ate dinner drove back to her apartment and hung out. She was like so your trying to hands free orgasm. Hows that going? and I sad its not.. Only achieved it twice now.. once with the guy and once with my doctor by accident.. She sad she is able to but she needs to jerk off some before she can shoot.. I sad oh as both of mine I was not touching my dick just had some one pressing on my ass in the right spot and boom.. We chatted and watched some tv.. then she drove me home and I went to bed.. Still embarrassed at fuck..

I did not attempt to hands free for a fucking long time after that.. Every time I felt embarrassed and ashamed.. It was not till Hooking up with my friend Roberta where it happened again and I started doing it again.. Sadly I can't achieve this on my own.. I need some one to do it for me.. As I have tried and tried , bought toys designed for this and everting.. For some reason I can't achieve it on my own..

Now fast fowared 2017 I was seeing a new doctor for a yearly physical. A LGBT friendly doctor as The older I got the less I was willing to put up with a straight persons attitude when I say I'm bi sexual and sometimes don't have protective sex... He was going to preform a prostate exam as it was 2 years since I had one done. He sad so do you still have that issue , where you ejaculate when your prostate is touched or moved around.. I been seeing this guy for 3 years at this point and I explained this happens some times but its not happened since. I sad ya and he gave me a glove and sad ok just put your penis in this and if it happens it will be contained.. I was like ok... and I felt relief he inserted a finger and thank god I had that glove as it happened again... Not as epic as the female doctors incident but a nice size squeezed out.. He finished up. Gave me some paper towels and sad so anything happened I sad yes.. He put gloves back on and took my clove with cum and again placed it in a dish.. I asked why whining up what do you do with this. and he sad screen it for cancers as its rather helpful when people can excrete prostate liquids as if cancers in there it will be present in the fluid.. And I was like oh.. I see now.. This years I had my physical and nothing came out.. So I don't get wtf this happens ....