First Time: How I Love Cock

I didn’t want to be gay, but I definitely wanted to suck cocks. Swallowing for the first time was the next step in my erotic fantasies and I knew it was going to feel like I was admitting to myself that I was on object of desire. I sucked him hard and began to take his cock in and out of my mouth while rubbing my lips on his glans. I knew what he liked and I looked up into his eyes as I took his whole cock in my mouth and pressed my face hard against his stomach. He twitched in pleasure and put his hand on my head. I let him fuck my mouth. I wanted him to fuck me. I wanted his cum. Most of all I wanted to feel his orgasm. I wanted to feel that swell, the pumping, the pulsating of the shaft and then the head as the semen squirted out in my mouth. I didn’t touch his dick with my hand, I was going to make him orgasm and swallow his cum just using my mouth. It was quick. As he pumped into my face I swallowed his cum. I wanted to stroke my own cock so badly, but it was still weird to jerk off while sucking a dick. I knew that I was letting a guy cum in my willing mouth, but to admit that I enjoyed it as much as he did was not something I could admit to him. So he moaned in pleasure while I restrained myself, but it was too much and I had a hands free orgasm squirting my own load into my underwear while I swallowed the last squirts of his thrusting cock.
He looked down and asked me if I had swallowed. With his slowly softening dick still in my mouth, I nodded. He smiled and told me that swallowing would make clean up easier. It sure did and I swallowed his cum dozens of times after that. As we approached graduation from high school, things got a little weird. Neither of us wanted to be gay, so we couldn’t talk about having sex, we couldn’t talk about the pleasure he got from using my mouth and I couldn’t talk about how hard I masturbated thinking about his cock in my mouth, so we went our own ways and in twenty years I never sucked a cock again. I can’t really express how horny it makes me to think about a cock in my mouth or to watch the cum squirting out of a dick, but at the same time I don’t feel any attraction to men.