First Time: How I Love Cock

Our sexual exploration continued at least a dozen more times with any pretense at just helping each other get off slowly fading away. We never talked about the fact that I didn’t want him to touch my dick, but as soon as he was done he just lost interest in any further sexual activity. A couple of times, he tried to suck my dick, but I never had an orgasm and would usually end up getting soft in his mouth despite the sexual desire I had to suck his cock. The second time I went to his house for a sleep over, he used truth or dare to slowly progress into sex with him daring me to kiss his dick and me daring him to let me stroke it. We got a little more comfortable and he once again had an orgasm while I felt his cock pumping in my mouth. I was hooked. Watching his face and looking into his eyes while I rubbed my lips and tongue up and down on his dick made me so horny I could orgasm just from sucking his dick. Despite my desire to suck his cock, our friendship faded and even though we continued to meet up we really stopped being friends in the next couple of years. One of the problems was that he kept trying to get me to cum and I would just end up faking it and pretending that I just didn’t have a lot of cum. The last time we had sex I really wanted him to fuck me in the ass, but he didn’t seem that into it and couldn’t get it in because I was so tight. My experimentation with anal had started with a habit of pressing against my perineum just below my balls with my thumb while orgasming, and progressed as I first slipped a finger in and then moved on to dildos.
My second sexual partner was a fantasy. I started thinking about sucking his dick because he was not very popular and was one of the few kids who I thought would be able to keep a secret. He was a little younger than me and I knew he had no sexual experience at all. I planned on how I would be his first and that I would get to suck his cock whenever I wanted. For months I masturbated thinking about sucking his dick and how it would happen.