Dreams

The TV is on with the sound on mute and I hear the sound of cars and trucks
running by the outside of the building just close enough for me to hear the
tires rubbing against the asphalt as they go by. I can't find much to do
in this little town and the closest source of entertainment is a half hour
away, not exactly what I wanted but it is after all just another evening
out of town with nothing to do.

I work for a computer company that installs systems in businesses for
general operations. This job takes me everywhere and usually for a few
weeks at a time with the weekend at home with the family. It's hard, but
the pay is good and I like what I do.

I have a normal life, Wife: children and bills to boot. My wife and I met
fifteen years ago and hit it off. We feel in love, bought a home and
started to build our lives together which included having a child. Our
lives were thrown into a constant turmoil with an ex-wife and older
daughter that always wanted more money than I had. A job that kept cutting
my salary and people who just didn't seem to care enough but at the heart
of it all I had my family and it was a good heart. Life went on through
hills and valleys just like everyone else, and I tried to do the right
thing whenever I could.

Then there is the fact that I am not what you call a normal guy in most
people's eyes. I like to cross dress and dream of becoming what I am not,
a woman. Every since I was 10 it was apparent to me that my mind did not
fit my body and at every turn, every chance, I tried to explore the
possibilities that my imagination would present to me in dreams. Dreams,
the one place where anything is possible yet uncontrollable. We think that
we can control our dreams but while we are there it plays us like life
itself with blind corners and dark alleys that spark our inquisitive minds.
It's so easy to find yourself lost in a dream feeling the moment and unsure
of where it will take you next. So real at times, and so very different