A Not-So-Small Piece of Heaven Chapter 3

And I could never see Vicky again. My thoughts then strayed back to Vicky. I couldn't imagine how she must be feeling right now. A pang of regret struck me. I should have at least explained myself. I decided I would call her in a couple of days, after I had gathered my thoughts more. I got back to my apartment and immediately started the shower running. I leaned over the counter and looked at myself in the mirror. I shuddered and brushed my teeth and gargled mouth wash. I got in the shower and rinsed myself off.

Feeling a little bit better after the shower, I decided I would rent a movie on Pay-Per-View. I popped some popcorn and sat down to watch. I had decided to watch some manly action flick so I didn't feel as gay. Ten minutes into the movie, my phone rang. I paused the movie and walked over to where it was sitting on the counter. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was Vicky. I mulled it over whether to answer it or not. I decided not to. Feeling disgusted with myself, I turned off the movie and went to bed. Penis or not, this was no way to treat a human being. I crawled under the sheets and stared at the ceiling. My conscious was starting to kick in. I tried not to think of her as the beautiful woman that she was. I felt my cock stir. I stood up and paced around the room. I shouldn't be turned on by her. When she first showed me that she was a shemale, I thought I was ok with it. It must have been my hormones talking. I must have been so horny I was willing to have sex with anything. That consoled me a little bit. It wasn't really me thinking. And when I woke up for round two, I must have been in a sleepy, food-deprived daze.

Thinking these things made me feel a little better, but running the events through my head from last night and earlier today I noticed I was sporting another hard on. I got back into bed. I wasn't going to masturbate. That would be the gay thing to do, and I didn't want to. A tear rolled down my cheek. What kind of human being was I? I totally devastated a creature that had shown me nothing but love.