I do not consider myself gay, nor do I think I am bisexual, but I do enjoy a nice big cock. I am not attracted to men at all and under normal circumstances find any and all homosexual activities quite disgusting, until I get really horny that is. When I get all hot and hard, I can't help but want a cock in my hand, mouth, and ass and eventually a big load of warm, sticky cum on my face and in my mouth.
Another odd thing that found myself craving to do when I got horny was dress up like a girl. I don't know if it attempting to justify my sexual desires of cock or what, but I know a nice slutty pair of high heels and dainty little thong make me even hotter. I find myself yearning to wear short, flowing skirts, "fuck me" high heels, sexy thigh-high stockings, and skanky, girly thongs.
These desires led me to risk a little cross dressing adventures in the past few months, but I could never muster up the courage or the means to actually get a hold of some real dick. I attempted to substitute a small collection of toys owned by my girlfriend (she is very kinky) for the real thing. It was also my girlfriend's clothes that I started out wearing on these private, little trysts. I would dress up in heels (which were a little small for me), thong, a skirt, and a bra stuffed with a pair of extremely life-like, fake breasts. After getting all dressed up I would admire myself in the mirror, bending over and pull my skirt up or lying down and spreading my legs wide open. Finally, it would be too much and I would take out the toys to play with. My girlfriend has three toys: an 8" pink dildo that looks like a real cock with balls called "Mr. Big", a purple 6" battery operated vibrator, and a long, rubber double headed dildo.
I took turns with each of the toys in wide variety of positions. First I would stick "Mr. Big" on the mirror or someplace with the suction cup and I would get on my knees in front of it. I licked it up the shaft, sucked on the balls, and worked the fake cock in my hand before I slide it into my mouth. I worked it in and out, slowly and short at first but the more I gained practice the faster and deeper I could take into my mouth and throat. While I sucked the fake dick I would rub my cock through my lacy panties as it grew harder and harder.
