My struggle

I'm licking the shaft of my dildo back up. I start kissing and licking it. The thought of sucking those cocks in the video and fucking the bitch as well got me so horny. I'm stroking my dick even faster and take my dildo back into my mouth. Sucking it as fast as I'm stroking my own cock. I feel my nut about to start. So I keep sucking as I feel my cum start. I start moaning with my dildo still in my mouth as I watch my nut shoot up and fall onto my stomach and hand. I keep stroking it as I take my dildo out my mouth and start kissing on the head. I love my dildo. I just wish it could be like a real dick and get harder or grow while in my mouth. But I do enjoy sucking it. Especially when watching cock videos. It's a struggle because I know I'm not gay. I still love women and pussy. But it's been a while since I had sex and my dildo's been the only action I been getting. Maybe I'll meet a woman who's freaky enough to play with me or satisfy these urges. I still wanna suck a shemale cock. That's definitely on my bucket list. Problem is there's not many shemales around where I live. Oh well. I hope you enjoyed this story as much as I enjoyed living it ;) I'm gonna make love to my dildo some more because I'm still horny.