My dream pt 2

Sydney kissed my hand and said, "Philip it has nothing to do with that. It's me. I'm the problem. And if I told you the real reason you would hate me and I don't want you to hate me. I love you too much for you to hate me."

Now I was really confused how could she love me and not want to be with me. What could be so bad about her that I would hate her? I didn't say anything and the silence hung in the air like a fog. Finally Sydney said, "You deserve an explanation, but I want you to promise me that you won't hurt me. You always struck me as a man that would keep his word no matter what. Now promise me that you won't hurt me or call me rude and nasty names."

I put my hand over my heart and said, "I have never hurt another person my whole life and I will not start now. Also I never like name calling it does little good. If you must hear it, I promise not to hurt you or call you evil names."

Sydney pulled her hand from mine and said, "Remember what you said after I used the dildo on you."

I knew the whole thing started that night and I knew it was about me telling her I loved what she did to me. So I said, "Yea I told you I loved it."

Sydney smiled but it was a sad smile then she looked like she was going to burst into tears any second before she said, "What you said was. I'm glad you're a girl because if you were a boy or a real T-girl then I would be gay because I love this too much. I don't think I could handle being gay." I was surprised that she had remembered it so well. But before she finished tears were pouring out of her eyes as she continued, "You see the problem is I'm not a real girl, I'm a T-girl and you would hate me for me it. That's why I decided to cool our relationship because you would never want me because of what I am." Sydney then jumped up and ran out of the house.

That was one I never saw coming. I had run all the possibilities over in my head and that wasn't one of them. But looking back I don't see how I missed it. No that wasn't true either I didn't see it because I fell in love with a beautiful girl, a very sweet and beautiful girl. That was what she was and she still is.