Kylie and Chrissy

These thoughts released a sudden feeling of guilt, as Kyle began to slowly reconstruct the events of the previous night in his mind. The skate park before cheap alcohol and an empty house resulted in makeup, lingerie and Kyle’s first sexual experience. His stomach began to ache with guilt. As the pair’s intoxicated conversation lead inevitably towards the topic of girls and sex, Chris had opened up about what he called his ‘lesbian sex fantasy’.

‘It’s not just watching’, Chris explained ‘yeh, that’s alright – it has a time and a place - but I mean active participation. And not like, oh here’s the dude that comes along and ruins the scene. I fucking hate when that happens in porn flicks’

‘Yeh, me too. It’s a damn shame when that happens’ Chris replied, unsure of what his friend was getting at.

‘Exactly. It’s just the masculinity – and they’re always so fucking macho – that just ruins such a moment of feminine beauty. And that’s what I mean. I want to part of that moment.’

‘But isn’t that a catch-22 situation? You can never participate without breaking that moment’

Chris grinned, ‘Well yeh, and this is the bit that nobody ever talks about. The ultimate lesbian sex fantasy is to accept that, and embrace some kind of femininity’

‘I don’t follow. Light some candles and play some Adele while you get stuck in?’

Laughing Chris replied, ‘Stuck in? No. I mean to be one of the girls in the scene. Kind of like an outer body experience’

‘You’re mad, how is that possible?’

‘Well, I don’t know, it’s not. But it is, kinda. If I looked and acted like a girl, in that particular situation, that is active participation’

Kyle at this point began to question whether or not this was a joke, but Chris continued. ‘It’s not the idea of a cock being involved that turns me off. Everyone loves a blowjob video. It’s the macho, ultra-masculinity which ruins such a beautiful moment. And all I’m saying is, if I looked feminine in this particular moment, then that would be my ultimate lesbian sex fantasy’