Halloween Disguise

waking up i sleep in until 8, i dont have work today but still have to go to school at 12. yay! i really start thinking about what i could be for this halloween party... i want to stop being such a hermit and meet actually go out and meet people. maybe even get laid for a change. not like it will be that hard at a party where everybody will be smashed drunk. i think of the few costumes julia told me about. but i want to be unique, something to catch eyes. im stumped. i cant think of anything good and i have only about 2 weeks to decide and prepare. i get on the internet to see if i can find any good ideas, most searches come up with just sexy costumes for girls. i give up after a short while, and decide to look at some porn instead. in my history it shows the video of the crossdresser video i watched last night. BOOM it hits me...

i could dress up like a girl! but not how most boys do; hairy, still having a beard or stubble, exaggerated boobs, and whatnot. i could dress as a girl and be believable. dress as a famous person or something. so that it looks like i AM a girl dressing as another girl. my excitement is overwhelming. very intense butterflies fill me stomach. could i really pull it off? maybe even take a boy home... maybe suck a cock for the first time. no i couldnt it would be too difficult. cmon stay positive, i can do it and if i cant im going to damn well try. but i havent dressed in years, and my voice has become more deep. i still dont grow a full beard but there is plenty of hair on my face. obstacles obstacles...

back in my teen days i did a little bit of crossdressing. i would wear my sisters clothes, most was too small even though she was older than me. her underwear were always my favorite! something about wearing sexy lace or a tiny g-string or even a pair of white plain panties. at 15 was when i discovered shemale porn, which made me curious of dressing. i even shaved my entire body a couple of times. with masturbation i tried few things with ass play. maybe a finger or two. but not too often. i even stole lube from a grocery store i worked at and stuck markers up my butt :) in these tender young years i did fantasize about being with a shemale or even being a shemale. eventually i grew out of most of it, except for watching shemale porn. or the occasional gay porn.