First time knowing that I was a girl inside

I was always jealous of the girls when I was younger. Jealous of their playing, jealous of their clothes,etc. I felt different. So one night when I was young, I stole my moms high heels and pantyhose before she went to bed. Always felt the clothes were right for me and was mad I couldn't wear them. I stuffed them in the back of my closet. I then waited till late at night. I pulled them out and put them on. GOD, was that the feeling I wanted! It felt SO right. The pantyhose on me and the high heels, even though they were a bit big on me but not by much. Here's where I KNEW......
I was turned on but I RUBBED my head with my fingers in the pantyhose instead of jerking it! As if it was a clit(although didn't know that at the time) and climaxed. NO joke, I swear I remember to this day! I still talk about that to a very few and to this day know that that was a sign. Why else would I do it that way at a young age? I have heard of no guy who's into women talking about that and doing that.

I don't know. Still glad I'm a girl inside. So much better to be one.