Becoming a Cock Worshipper

I first realized I was bi the summer after high school. Up until then I had only been really interested in girls. Like any high school guy I watched a lot of porn and soon realized that I really liked really nasty deep throat blow job scenes.

I especially enjoyed watching a girl choke and gag and cover a hard cock in her spit. I also realized that my favorite scenes always involved a really big, thick cock, and the more I watched the more I found myself attracted to the guy in the scene and his thick slimy cock. I even started noticing which male porn stars I thought had nice cocks, and seeking out scenes with them. I still was only into straight porn though; but because I found myself identifying and wishing I were the girl in the scene, on my knees, dressed like a slut and filmed sucking a beautiful thick hard cock!

I was addicted to cock, and as I became more open and dirtier in my fantasies I knew that I wanted to suck one for myself, and soon. I started out in chat rooms, role playing online or on the phone with men, telling them about my fantasies, listen to them talk about how they wanted me to wear thongs and lingerie to suck their thick hard cocks! It was very exciting hearing men call me a bitch and a whore and stroking while I whispered my nasty fantasies into the phone, and soon I was purchasing lingerie and thongs to take pics of myself for these men, and searching local hookup websites for my first real cock.

During this time I had also purchased two dildos: one a slender glass piece that I used in my ass, initially because so many guys wanted to see pics of me fucking my ass with toys. I went to a porn shop in one of the less affluent areas of the city and was initially overwhelmed by the range in sizes and material of dildos. The woman at the counter, a heavier, middle aged woman saw me looking at them and politely asked if I was looking for myself or someone else. Blushing a little I replied that I was looking for a good anal toy for myself.