Triptych

For such an offense, Russ told himself, he should never forgive the bitch. He should regard her as his worst enemy and as a person totally beyond redemption. He should do so, but he could not. She was too beautiful. When she looked at him, spoke to him, or touched him, his heart would melt. He could not dismiss her from his presence; he could not resist her soft murmurings, her entreaties, her caresses, her kisses, her more profound intimacies. Try as he may to deny or reject her, he succumbed to her charms, to her womanly ways, although, he told her, he had not forgiven, and could never forgive, her, any more than he could ever understand her refusal to be made complete.

"I think I can explain why I want to keep my cock and balls," she told him, finally, after they'd made love evening on his bedroom balcony.

She had sucked his cock, with as great fervor and devotion as ever she had shown in times past, and he'd ejaculated his seed into her face. The thick, viscid, white semen clung to the bridge of her nose, looped across her cheek, drooled from her lips, and dripped from her chin. Beads, like melted pearls, adorned her hair and eyelashes. She did not wipe it off. She would never insult Russ that way. Instead, as always, she would wear his semen with pride, letting it dry into brittle flakes.

He lay beside her, his cock smeared with the remnants of sperm that had not spurted into her face, and studied her slick, glistening features. He liked the look of his fecundating fluid in her hair and eyes and on her nose, cheeks, chin, and lips. It marked her as a slut, he thought, and as his, for the semen was his seed and only a slut would let such a fluid splatter her face and lips and teeth and tongue.

"Why" he asked, abruptly but without the harshness with which he'd meant to invest the word.

Haltingly, with many pauses, she explained. She didn't want to part with her penis and testicles, she said, because she didn't want to become a woman, not completely and for all time, any more than she wanted to remain entirely and forever a man.