Amber Becomes a Reality

It was almost like I had a second life but I justified it because I never actually cheated. Sometimes I would stuff a pair of pants and shirt with towels and have a dildo sticking out the zipper. Then I would set up a video camera, hit record and when I sucked on and rode the dildo it looked like I was making my own she-male porn. I loved watching myself on film giving head and riding a cock. I only wished it was a real cock and not just a dildo. I got real good at controlling my gag reflex to the point where I could handle an eight in dildo in my mouth. My pussy had also become use to it have the eight inches sliding in and out of it.

This went on for about a year when one day I came home to find a letter that had been place though my mail slot. The only thing on the envelope were the words, "I'm sorry". I opened the letter to find Jen had left me. She didn't say much except she was leaving the area and she was sorry for hurting me. I was crushed because I loved her and loved being with her. This is when things really changed for me.

To distract myself from the depression of her leaving, I spent more time being Amber. I went on the Internet and I bought a lot of new slutty women's clothes and tons of make-up. I even ordered a very real looking set of fake breast. I already had long hair so I didn't need to buy a wig. Kinky sex chat rooms became my best friend and I would use Amber as my log on name. I would always wear the breast and dressed up pretending I was a she-male when I did this. I spent most of my spare time either doing this or I would make my porn films and analyzed every aspect on how I acted and looked on film.

Finally my curiosity got the best of me and I decided to take Amber from fantasy to reality. I have been good at business ever since I was a little kid and my whole life I have been an entrepreneur. This is why I figured if I was going to try having sex with a man, I might as well get paid while I found out if I liked it. One thing that helped me decided to do this, is the practicing I have done made it easy to pass as a woman.