Sissy story and 1st meet humiliation

It can be difficult being a sissy and chatting to guys on these sites. Some think you are a full MTF person, others think you are dressed and smooth 24/7 and some even think you are a real girl!

Out of the ones that understand what a sissy is, you have the married guys, the guys who can barely string a sentence, the ones who log out immediately after a cam session and never chat again until months later, the guys who come off obviously suspicious and of course ...timewasters. The most disappointing though is the overly aggressive Doms, who think being a Dom is about being highly aggressive from the very start, because you know their heart is in the right place, but they are doing it wrong.

If you are a Dom reading this, please understand that a sissy wants to serve you and be degraded by you, but it is something you build up to, let your sissy know you will take charge when the situation is right, not from when you're getting to know each other! Preparing to be a sissy takes alot of time, they can't just cam for you the moment you order, or come round and suck you off the moment you say, although I'm sure any sissy would love to, most times it's just not feasible!

You may think I am picky with guys from those last paragraphs, but I am not. I like hygienic guys with trimmed/smooth cocks is the only thing I look for physically in a man. I am quite a slutty desperate sissy! However, time went by and I couldn't find anyone to meet.

I was finding it hard to balance being me in 'boy mode', and my 'girly sissy mode' Holly. I didn't want to work out too much and lose my girly body, but also wanted to live my normal boy life. At one point 2 years ago, I made the mistake of 'purging' - getting rid of all my sissy stuff,. It is a common thing many sissies go through. I was moving out and it would be difficult to hide my lingerie. I also wanted to get on with being a single straight guy, instead of also being Holly. It was a huge mistake, 4 months later I was buying clothes again, and I still miss so many of my old clothes.