Sara by Sara

He knew it was me. And I knew he knew. Mortified, I kept my head buried in the book until I heard him get on the elevator and depart. I then noticed I was covered with sweat.
I let a few minutes pass. Then I gathered my things, and left. I went back to my apartment. I could hear a couple having sex through the thin walls of my apartment. As always before, I focused on the sounds the girl was making…but as never before, I focused on those sounds not to create the fantasy of doing her, but being her. And I would notice in the days to come that I would do such things without premeditation or purpose.My default first reaction to any heterosexual stimuli whether in real life or on television or in magazines was to imagine being the girl.
I thought again of the beautiful cock I had stared at that afternoon. I knew what I wanted to do. I wanted to dress like a girl and suck on a dildo……maybe even try to ease it inside me. Here, alone in my apartment, where I could safely act as girly as I wanted and no one would notice.
There was a huge sex shop on the edge of town. I drove out there, and rode around for several minutes to satisfy myself that no one I knew was there. I then dashed from the car to the door, looking around all the time, terrified that I’d be noticed. I went in. I guess it was the mirrored windows, but inside suddenly I felt safe…secure. I had planned to rush around and get the things I’d come for,but instead I leisurely strolled around.
I carefully considered a number of different sets of lingerie, finally settling on three sets that I liked the best. I also got a waitress and cheerleader outfit.
Then I went to the back room of the store where an entire wall was devoted to dildos of every shape, size, and color imaginable. I set about searching for the one that reminded me most of the penis I’d seen that afternoon, and though it took a while I found the perfect match. I stared down at it longingly, and felt a bulge in my pants. I wanted it in my pants, rubbing against my ass cheeks. All of a sudden I couldn’t wait to get back home. So I headed to check out. Along the way I passed a counter of exotic lubricants. Thinking of the full range of uses to which I wished to put the dildo, I picked up a few bottles of that as well.