Jordan's First

He turned to me and explained that he had recently come out as gay and his parents wanted nothing to do with him, his stuff was packed up over a week ago and he was not welcome any further into the house than the sun porch. I told Jordan that I hope he can think of this as his home and let him know that he was always welcome here. I wrapped him in a tight hug as he wept onto my chest, his sweet scent filling my nostrils, his skin was so silky and smooth. I knew this was a bad time, but having this delicate feminine being in my arms gave me one of the most intense erections I have ever had.
I don't think Jordan noticed however, or if he did he didn't let on. That night I couldn't help myself, I had to pleasure myself, thoughts of Jordan's beautiful creamy skin filling my head as came.
Over the next couple of months we became pretty close, I found myself having feelings for him, but I could never act on it. I was into women after all, though I had to admit that Jordan seemed more girlish than most of the women I was ever with. My confusion was made worse when summer turned to winter and Jordan went from wearing shorts to actually wearing yoga pants. His hair was getting longer and he often wore it down. More than once I caught him earning extra income doing cam shows. He left his door open just a crack and I was mesmerized to see him ride a dildo, moaning softly, his back to me as he rode.
With winter came my regular seasonal layoff. Having more time at home Jordan and I would watch a lot of TV together, at first he sat on the other end of the couch, but as time went on he sat closer and closer to me.
Finally one day he paused the movie and asked if he could confide something in me. "Of course" I told him and I turned to face him. Unlike most days he was wearing rather baggy clothes, I was secretly disappointed since I was use to seeing him wearing tight clothes that perfectly complimented his shapely hairless legs.
"I was hoping to get some advice" he said, his voice somewhat shaky and he was starting to blush. "I think I am falling for someone" he told me. "That's great" I told him, though inside it felt like i was just kicked in the gut, but why? He was a man right? This shouldn't bother me, and if he found someone that makes him happy then that is all that matters...isn't it?